This years problems are the opposite from last years problems. Its a bittersweet feeling; when I finally faced what I feared. I no longer fear, but I long for something. Now that I am free from the net that ensnared me, I sense a form of loneliness or longing for that net.
Facing fears is a terrifying thing, but no one told me about this unique sense of loss that I would find in this empty and open sky. In this freedom I find that I miss the violent storm and the warm beams of the sun.
My freedom leaves me a bit empty, a little too neutral, a little too plain.
And yet, I am where I need to be; where I should be. I think I just need to take this peacefulness I have and continue to work on doing what I need to do... but also, maybe throw in a little bit what of what I want to do as well. I'm on a quest to do what is right and good in my life and I think having some fun is certainly allowed. :)
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Sweet girl, you are anything but plain, but I do understand that empty feeling. This is a time to fill it up with Jesus and whatever your heart desires. You are right that you're right where you should be. Find the joys in it and God has something great for you just around the corner.
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Wow, you both have amazing insights! So wise, and so true--both! Don't worry about a thing. And yes, please have fun in the process.
ReplyDelete"Whatever is pure, whatever is lovely...." <3